There are seasons when you look at your life and quietly wonder how you ended up here. Nothing may be completely falling apart. You are still following Jesus. You still believe God is faithful. You still pray, serve, work, and carry the responsibilities He has given you. Yet beneath all of that, there can be a nagging disappointment that is difficult to put into words.
You thought you would be further along by now.
Perhaps you thought the ministry would have grown more. You expected the finances to be stronger, the doors to be wider, the relationships to be healthier, or the path ahead to be clearer. Maybe you thought that after all these years of serving God, you would have a better understanding of where your life was going.
Instead, you find yourself in a place you did not plan for.
Some prayers have not been answered the way you expected. Some opportunities you were certain would come never appeared. Other doors opened for a season and then closed without much explanation. Relationships changed. Resources shifted. Things that once seemed certain became uncertain.
Then you look around and see other people moving forward. Someone you started with seems to be flourishing. Someone younger is doing what you once dreamed of doing. Someone else received the opportunity you had prayed about for years.
If you are not careful, disappointment can turn inward. You begin asking questions that go much deeper than the circumstances themselves.
Did I miss God? Did I take a wrong turn somewhere? Did I waste years? Should I have stayed longer? Should I have left sooner? Did I misunderstand what God was saying?
I understand those questions because I have asked some of them myself.
One of the hardest parts of an unsettled season is not simply that life has changed. It is that the change forces us to reconsider the story we thought we were living.
The Map We Drew
Most of us carry a map in our minds of how life is supposed to unfold. We may never have written it down, but the expectations are there. By this age, I should be here. By now, this should have happened. After this many years of faithfulness, surely that door should have opened. We build an internal timeline, and without realising it, we begin measuring God’s faithfulness by how closely our lives follow it.
But God has never promised to follow the map we drew.
That is especially difficult when our desires are not selfish. You may genuinely want to honour God. You may have stepped out in obedience. You may have carried something in prayer for years. You were not simply pursuing success; you believed you were pursuing purpose.
Yet obedience does not always produce the route we expected.
This is one of the great tensions of following God. We know where we believe He is taking us, but we do not always understand the way He chooses to get us there.
Israel discovered this when they left Egypt. There was a shorter route to the Promised Land, but God deliberately did not lead them that way. Exodus tells us that He did not take them through the land of the Philistines, “though that was shorter” (Exodus 13:17).
I find those words striking.
There was a shorter way.
There was a route that made more sense.
There was a path that would have reached the destination more quickly.
But God chose another way.
Why? Because God was not simply moving people from one geographical location to another. He was forming them. Egypt had come out of their circumstances, but Egypt still had to come out of them. They needed to learn dependence, obedience, trust, worship, and the ways of God.
The journey was doing something in them that the shorter route could not do.
Perhaps that is one of the things we struggle to understand when we feel behind. We are looking at the destination while God is also looking at our formation.
We want to arrive. God wants to prepare us to live faithfully when we do.
What Is God Forming in You?
This does not mean every delay is caused by God. Scripture does not ask us to call every disappointment divine. We make mistakes. People hurt us. Opportunities are lost. Opposition is real. Sometimes we misunderstand God’s direction, and sometimes the decisions of others have painful consequences in our lives.
But even when God did not cause the disruption, He is able to redeem it.
Joseph could look back over years of betrayal, injustice, false accusation, and waiting and say that what others intended for evil, God used for good. That did not make the betrayal good. It meant the betrayal did not get the final word.
The same is true for us. God does not need to have authored every painful chapter in order to become the Redeemer of the story.
That changes the question.
Instead of continually asking, “Why am I not further along?” perhaps we need to ask, “What is God forming in me here?”
That is a very different question.
You may not have the platform you thought you would have, but perhaps you have developed compassion you did not have ten years ago. Maybe you are less controlled by the approval of people. Perhaps you have learned how quickly success can become an idol, even when we attach spiritual language to it. You may have learned to recognise the presence of God in ordinary places rather than only in dramatic moments.
Perhaps you pray differently now. Perhaps you listen more carefully. Perhaps you are slower to judge people whose lives have taken unexpected turns. Perhaps you understand grace in ways you could never have learned from a textbook.
These things are difficult to measure, but they matter deeply to God.
There are qualities formed in obscurity that are rarely formed on a platform. There are lessons learned in the wilderness that cannot be learned in the palace. There is a kind of dependence that only develops when our familiar resources are no longer enough.
We often interpret hiddenness as inactivity, but God does some of His deepest work where nobody is watching.
The wilderness was not wasted on Moses. The cave was not wasted on David. Prison was not wasted on Joseph. The years before Jesus began His public ministry were not wasted.
And your present season does not have to be wasted either.
The Trouble With Looking Sideways
One of the greatest dangers in an unsettled season is comparison.
When our own path is unclear, we become unusually interested in everyone else’s. We notice who is being promoted, who is growing, who is being invited, who bought the house, who launched the ministry, who received the opportunity.
Before long, someone else’s blessing begins to feel like evidence that we have been forgotten.
Peter fell into the same trap.
After Jesus spoke to Peter about his own future, Peter looked at John and asked, “Lord, what about him?” Jesus responded, “What is that to you? You must follow me” (John 21:21–22).
That is a liberating word if we will receive it.
Jesus was calling Peter back to the only journey Peter was responsible to walk.
“Follow Me.”
Someone else’s timeline cannot tell you whether you are in the will of God. Their open door does not mean you missed yours. Their visibility does not mean God has forgotten you. Their season is not the standard by which you should interpret your own.
Comparison makes it almost impossible to discern the ways of God because it keeps us looking sideways when Jesus is calling us to follow Him.
Between Here and There
There is a place I write about in Unsettled that I think many people know well. It is the space between what was and what will be.
The old door has closed, but the next one has not opened.
You cannot go back, but you cannot yet see forward.
I call it the in-between.
The in-between can be deeply uncomfortable because there is very little we can control there. Yesterday is gone, tomorrow is unclear, and we are left with today.
Yet this is often where God deals with some of the deepest things in us.
Can I trust Him when I do not understand Him? Can I obey without knowing the outcome? Can I remain faithful when nobody is applauding? Can I believe that God is still working when there is very little visible evidence that anything is happening?
We want clarity because clarity gives us a sense of control. God wants trust.
That does not mean clarity is wrong. It means clarity cannot become the condition of our obedience.
There are times when God gives detailed instructions, but there are also times when He gives enough light for one step.
That can be frustrating because we want the map.
God often gives direction.
We want to know how the next five years will unfold. God tells us what faithfulness looks like today.
Perhaps that is where you are now. You do not need to know everything that comes next. You need to know what obedience requires next.
Maybe that means starting something. Maybe it means ending something. Maybe it means making a call, having a difficult conversation, writing again, serving faithfully, resting for a season, or finally releasing something that ended long ago.
Sometimes the next act of obedience is simply to stop trying to keep alive what God is asking us to release.
You May Not Be Behind
So perhaps you are not as far behind as you think.
I am not suggesting that every lost opportunity was God’s plan or that every delay should be spiritualised. There are times when we need to take responsibility, make changes, receive counsel, and move forward.
But I am saying this: do not measure your whole life by the distance between where you are and where you thought you would be.
God may be doing something much deeper than you can presently see.
The season that feels slow may be preparing you for something that requires roots. The obscurity you resent may be dealing with a need for recognition that would have injured you later. The closed door may be protecting you. The changing relationship may be revealing where you placed too much of your identity. The delay may be exposing whether you want God’s purpose or merely the version of His purpose that you designed.
These are not easy lessons.
But they are holy ones.
There comes a point in every journey of faith when we have to lay down the map we drew and say once again, “Lord, wherever You lead, I will follow.”
That is not surrendering your calling.
It is surrendering your demand to control how the calling unfolds.
You may have thought you would be further along by now. I understand that feeling. But perhaps the better question is not how quickly you are moving.
Perhaps the better question is whether you are still following.
If you are, keep going.
Stay close to Jesus. Pay attention to what He is forming in you. Refuse to measure your life by somebody else’s journey. Do not force open a door simply because you are tired of the hallway.
And when God makes the next step clear, take it.
You may not have the whole map.
You don’t need it.
You need His presence, His voice, and enough faith to obey Him one step at a time.
Walking Through an Unsettled Season?
If your plans have been disrupted, resources have changed, relationships have shifted, or you are trying to discern what God is doing in a season you never expected, I wrote Unsettled: The Unexpected Path to God’s Purposes for you.
This book was born out of real seasons of change and the lessons God taught me about His ways when the path ahead was anything but clear. It is about learning to discern the difference between resistance and redirection, releasing what has ended, trusting God in the in-between, and finding the courage to move when He makes the next step clear.
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